I was really going to leave this private, but I feel the need to defend myself after things were turned around on me earlier this morning.
I’ll begin with telling the story. The responsible party has neglected to mention this part.
As I’m checking my email Sunday, I find an email stating that my password has been recovered for Movable Type (for the family site). I know that this was not something that I’d done. At this point I am just absolutely shocked that someone would do this to me. I didn’t know the extent of the damage at this point, so I went about checking everything I have online and changing every password I could think of. Then, I check my tracker. To my amazement, I find that someone has gone into my site statistics from my admin control panel (through the host). There, they found the URL to my tracker and checked that. Plus, this same IP was at my mt.cgi file. BINGO. But guess who it was? Shanee.
So, I PM her. Initially I am just stunned. I figured it must be some mistake and I prepare myself mentally for the argument that would probably follow. But she apologized. Her story was that she had a friend over, talked to him about me, showed him my sites, and basically led him to believe that she wanted something bad to be done to me. She said, “No worries, he didn’t even get in!” And that makes it right? She claims that he did it and she didn’t realize it until too late.
I am telling the truth when I say I am not mad. I’m not. A little perturbed, yes, but not mad. If I was mad, she would have heard about this sooner.
Meanwhile, I cannot get into my MT to update in my pregnancy journal. I PMed her, asking if she could find out what exactly this person did and explaining that I couldn’t get in. She had annoyed me with her posts about not beating herself up over ‘what someone else did’ or however she worded it. Why? To me, it felt like she wasn’t sorry if the next day she could shrug it off. When she replied she told me just to recover the password again – and hello, I’d tried that. I tried a reinstall and that didn’t work, either.
I never said anything mean. I kept the contact at a minimum. More importantly, I kept my cool and didn’t run off at the mouth. I just barely mentioned it. Really, it was a minor annoyance and truly isn’t the end of the world. I didn’t fully believe the story I was told, but whatever. Who cares, right? What’s done is done and it can’t be undone.
So yesterday I finally get in to MT. Just for kicks, I checked my activity log. Would you believe that they tried for TWO HOURS to get in?! They tried all kinds of things .. even searched Google. Still – I am not mad. I bring it up – copy and pasted the two hours’ worth of invalid logins into a PM for her. To me, the story is a load of bull. Now she claims that she was putting the baby down and took a shower – leaving this person downstairs at her computer for over two hours? Yeah, I doubt that.
I brought all of this to her before saying anything elsewhere. I really wasn’t gonna bring it here, but since she thinks I’m being a snob, I’m going to defend myself. I don’t accept her apology anymore. My opinion is that she’s sorry she got caught. Now she’s trying to flip the script and put it all on me. She’s running off at the mouth trying to convince folks that I am wanting her to grovel and calling me a snob. Apologies are no good if they aren’t sincere. I don’t even want an apology. I want what I deserve – and that is the truth.
And still .. I am not mad. Anger is such a passionate emotion and will not be wasted on someone so undeserving. She can sit there and write all about how I am a ‘snob’ and that I am making myself look bad, but I don’t care. I don’t do things just to make myself look good – and if I did, I am surely not doing a good job at it. Really, what gets on my nerves is not that they tried to get into my MT – it’s that I think she’s lying. She knows she is. But, Shanee is an actress …
She’s asked me why I think that she would do this .. why it would benefit her. I don’t know. I was gone and received several messages asking what was going on, where I was, and even an offer to come down and help me out if I needed it (all from her). Maybe she just wanted to know if I was really around? Who knows.
Anyway, this is my defense and I refuse to enter into another pissing match. I thought, “Hmm .. why stoop down to her level? That’s what she wants ..” After some thinking, I realized I am not going down to her level. I am telling the story in it’s entirety – something she had not done. Everything said here is the truth, unless otherwise noted (and I did make it a point to distinguish between my opinions, my doubts, and the facts).
From the mouth of Christina Aguilera ..
Call me a b—- ’cause I speak what’s on my mind
Guess it’s easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled
And to reiterate .. the only reason I am posting this is to get the truth out there. I have no intentions of stirring the pot, though I’m sure this isn’t the end of it ..